Worship

One thing I absolutely love is worshipping.

Why?

I believe that our worship is sacred, it is a bond, a personal offering, a secret, surrender. It just troubles me though because I feel worship is becoming routine, when that should never occur. I understand that no one person is alike and therefore their worship will not be the same; however, individually we should not be on a worship routine schedule. Our worship should almost be different each time.
When I worship I am communicating. I am communicating with God and the holy spirit. My situations, emotions and feelings which are lead by the holy spirit guide me in different worship. I have to admit my least favorite worship is my dry worship. There were moments when I was tired, complacent, everything was just kind of fine. And as I entered into worship I will be honest when I say that I was not really feeling it. I sang the song, I clapped my hands and tried to raise my hands but it didn't feel sincere. You never want to stay in a dry worship. It will happen, but we need to fight with EVERYTHING in us to break from that. We need not to never forget the sacrifice that Jesus Christ made for us. When we can't seem to feel anything we need to remember that we were enslaved, and dead in our sins. The world controlled us, and it is ONLY because of him that we are free. He was cursed at, spit at, he was whipped, he bled, he was nailed to a cross until his lungs collapsed and he died. He went through all of that and more, for you, for me. Always remember, never forget. When I think of this I automatically go into a state of humble worship. I kneel and just thank god for such a sacrifice, I weep, I surrender, I lift my hands as high as I can and take comfort in his love for me that he would do such a thing. But, there are times when this won't even move us. When we are bitter, angry, mad at God. When we're in doubt and disbelief. When the situation we are going through feels so complicated and painful that we ask why God would ever allow us to go through it. This is a scary place but my favorite. I remember being here, thinking that he wasn't the answer. Can I say that God is never not the answer. When we get to this place we need to dance a dance like we have never danced before. This is when I believe we worship with the dance of David. Satan will come against you, he will trick you with any weakness you have in this world. And when Satan throws a battle at you, when you start to believe in your circumstances and not in God. DANCE. Because the enemy knows that God wants to do something amazing, he wants to shower you with blessings and wants you to stretch his kingdom. The enemy attacks this because he does not want us to win. Always remember that, every tribulation we face is so miniscule in comparison to the everlasting glory we have through Christ Jesus. That is why we must dance, when we can't smile... laugh. Stomp your feet, throw your hands up high and shout if you want to, give absolutely everything you have to God, dance the dance of freedom and show Satan that he will never be the victor. Show Satan that you will not give in, get DESPERATE! When your low, you are desperate and vulnerable and just when the enemy thinks he has footing, rip it away, stomp on his foot and laugh. Dance on his head and know that God will take care of you and give you the win. The other extreme is when we are feeling so good and high, and more spiritual than we could ever get. Know that we are never as spiritual as we could ever get. Know that God is so powerful, omniscient, and omnipresent that we should never be able to stop digging in to him. Never get complacent and lackadaisical with Christ. He knows everything about us, so instead of getting on our high horse, why don't we take a step down and start getting to know God. This is also one of my favorite worships. This is when we talk. I often find myself having the spirit overtake me and my language gets flustered. I begin speaking in the heavenly language because God is communicating with me. It is personal and lovely.

I love God, I thank him for helping me, guiding me, and being the best friend I could ever ask for. That is why I worship, why I love it so much, why it is a big part of me.